Disturbed by Nothing

"Nothing is very strong: strong enough to steal away a man's best years not in sweet sins but in a dreary flickering of the mind over it knows not what and knows not why, in the gratification of curiosities so feeble that the man is only half-aware of them..." (from ch. 12 of The Screwtape Letters)

I'm disturbed by how often I am preoccupied by Nothing.  For those who happen to be emo or have emo-tendencies, this will definitely strike a nerve.  As if you didn't already feel guilty enough.  But, you're not alone!  C.S. Lewis perhaps on more than one occasion was "up late at night, not roistering, but staring at a dead fire in a cold room".  Why would a Christian do this?  According to Lewis, when one is distant from God (due to sins), he is very reluctant to THINK about God, and then will desperately seek anything to distract the mind from this "dim uneasiness".

(yeah, I had to look up roistering: engage in boisterous merrymaking.  o_O)